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Longing
Friday, September 2, 2011, 2:25 AM
2 days ago, I had this dream right before I woke up. Dreamt of something that I've always wanted. It was perfect. I had an elder brother that I was close to. I felt really fulfilled in there, then I woke up and felt fucking horrible. So fulfilled, yet so empty. The feeling fucking sucks. I swear. It's been bugging me for the past few days already, and I hate it.
Sometimes it's really nice to be a single child, sometimes, it just sucks, a whole lot. I feel like the only reason why I like the state of solitude is because somehow I'm forced to get used to it that way. Every now and then, I feel really lonely at home, completely alone, with no one to talk to. Not a good feeling, it really isn't. I just want to have that feeling in my dream back again, or at least let me revisit my dream, something. I have to stay strong, stay independent. It has always been like that the past 18 years.
Fuck I sound so needy and attention seeking. But, ahh it's so heart-wrenching to type this...
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